Visiting Hours — Surviving the Narrative, Not the Addiction
I was losing myself, and had for a long time, in a slow but unnerving creeping way. Things I tried to hold on to had been falling out betwee...
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My Own Flying Monkey — Understanding C-PTSD and the Inner Critic
It has been a wild journey of suffering and confusion. Not knowing how to handle my own life, ending up relying on self-medication with toda...
Understanding the hard time
A year ago, I didn't understand what was happening inside me. I knew something was wrong and I had known for a very long time, just not ...
Coming home to a different home
Growing up, I lived one experience and assumed it was the only one. I didn't question how I saw things, how I reacted, how I made sense ...
The trap of holding on — Escaping Depression's Belief That You're Broken Beyond Repair
“You can always measure what you’ll lose, but you can’t see what you’ll gain.” - Kyle Cease I have created this idea that I am broken, and h...
Ask the right question — A Simple Tool for Resisting Alcohol Cravings
What is the ONE Thing I can do, such that in doing so, it will make everything else easier or unnecessary? “Ask the right question, get the ...
The unconscious you, more you then you think. — Anxiety, the Body's Alarm System, and Letting Go of Alcohol
Being aware of your unconscious you. We are 99% unconscious in what is going on, but we walk around this place and believe we are 100% consc...
The power of Awareness — Catching the Early Signs of Depression and Alcohol Dependence
Sweet short and to the point. You can’t fix a problem you are not aware of. It is so easy to see in heine sith or with added knowledge. A pr...
Depression lies to you. Alcohol makes the lies believable. — Breaking the Cycle with Self-Compassion
Most people would have heard the saying, to drown your sorrows, and that means with alcohol. Depression and alcohol are in a dark relationsh...
If I can just! — How Undiagnosed Depression Hid Behind Constant Achievement
Repeat and go. I kept my life on track by keeping busy from one thing to the next. It was always something that had to be accomplished in my...
Your last Friend — Alcohol, Shame, and the Myth of Just Snapping Out of It
When you drink to be with your best friend — who is shaming you, blaming you, numbing you, and robbing your memories — you have descended de...
My Body, Myself, and Mayday — Learning to Reconnect After Alcohol and Self-Neglect
The Body I have treated my body as a thing — something that happens to travel through the world with me, rather than something I am. Sometim...
Data Point, Not Relapse — How I'm Learning to Recover Without Shame
As I've mentioned before in this blog, a lot of my writing comes from the This Naked Mind course I'm doing. It's a year-long cou...
The ACT Technique — A Tool for Working Through Cravings and Alcohol Triggers
Taken from This Naked Mind "The ACT Technique is a process I’ve developed through many of my teachers (Dave Gray, Byron Katie, and man...
The little acts — Tracing Suppressed Emotions Back to the Root of Addiction
The little act that set us off. I think I have always been super sensitive to my own emotions. And not knowing how to talk about them, or in...
Happy birthday to ME! — From Drinking-Fuelled Birthdays to a Sober Celebration
Well, it's my birthday today, and that is not a day I would normally enjoy. When I was little, I think I had so much anticipation that w...
What beliefs do you have about alcohol? — Unlearning Inherited Beliefs About Drinking
Since the question is what kind of beliefs do you have about alcohol, I am happy to say that this has changed greatly from what I believed b...
Deciding to make an open journal — The First Entry of a Public Mental Health Recovery Journal
This post is the start of an open journal about my mental health recovery. I'll write about myself, the people around me, what I'm t...
