A Pile of Straws, A Search for Light
I have seen the depth, and I have felt its cold, clammy grasp—the pulling force that keeps me down. Words are a straw amongst many, a way to...
Mental Health
A Woollen Thread — On Grief, Ambiguous Loss, and Loving Children From a Distance
The last year has been the hardest in my life. I have fought every little bit of it, trying to stay above water, but it just keeps on giving...
What is your purpose — A Father's Reflection on Guilt, Depression, and Parenting Teens
I have discovered my biggest problem, and it is simply my lack of purpose. Why do I exist and what are the benefits of me existing? I can st...
The one way trip — Facing Loss, Grief, and a Partner's Breast Cancer Diagnosis
Life is a one way journey without any stops or breaks. If things break while on this trip, it would have to be fixed while moving. Most of u...
Peace Within — A Meditation on Self-Acceptance and Inner Peace
Peace within is a powerful message. It is like a seed that must be nurtured and cared for, to grow and reach outwards. Without the right env...
Depression lies to you. Alcohol makes the lies believable. — Breaking the Cycle with Self-Compassion
Most people would have heard the saying, to drown your sorrows, and that means with alcohol. Depression and alcohol are in a dark relationsh...
If I can just! — How Undiagnosed Depression Hid Behind Constant Achievement
Repeat and go. I kept my life on track by keeping busy from one thing to the next. It was always something that had to be accomplished in my...
Your last Friend — Alcohol, Shame, and the Myth of Just Snapping Out of It
When you drink to be with your best friend — who is shaming you, blaming you, numbing you, and robbing your memories — you have descended de...
My Body, Myself, and Mayday — Learning to Reconnect After Alcohol and Self-Neglect
The Body I have treated my body as a thing — something that happens to travel through the world with me, rather than something I am. Sometim...
Data Point, Not Relapse — How I'm Learning to Recover Without Shame
As I've mentioned before in this blog, a lot of my writing comes from the This Naked Mind course I'm doing. It's a year-long cou...
