The power of Awareness

Sweet short and to the point. You can’t fix a problem you are not aware of. It is so easy to see in heine sith or with added knowledge. A problem fixed early is less work then fixing a problem late or maybe even too late. An example: If there is too little oil in an engine, an early fix is to top it up, a late fix might require some new parts, and a too late fix requires an engine rebuild.

If I had the knowledge I have today, I might have seen the signals of my drinking, depression and anxiety much earlier, and could have done something about it. Instead I continued in the best way I knew, and let things continue to break down, while applying my energy in all the wrong places. I was putting my efforts into looking after my family, my work, finances and my x-wife instead of looking after myself.

When things got so bad and I started questioning things, one of the first searches I put into a search engine was “bi-polar”. And this was my first awareness of something being off. I still didn’t have the tools needed, and did the best I knew at the time, and that was to put a tape over the red flashing engine light.