The unconscious you, more you then you think.

Being aware of your unconscious you. We are 99% unconscious in what is going on, but we walk around this place and believe we are 100% conscious. The awareness of this carries a punch to your stomach, a hunch about something, spirituality, religion or maybe even some enlightenment. For me it’s kind of a discovery, to be aware of how little I am aware of what is going on. Taking my feelings and thoughts as facts, rather than a gauge.

I have started listening to a book called Anxiety Rx, where Russell Kennedy (MD), takes a deep dive into how he understands Anxiety. It has really resonated with me, and given me a new level of awareness, a layer taken off my onion and new tools in my toolbox. He is talking about alarms in your body, the knot in your gut, the feeling that something is wrong. These messages from my body have been strong and persistent, and a big reason for my drinking, because drinking dissipates the constant messaging.

Now with this new understanding, I will question the messages, let them be or use other grounding techniques to suede my body. I still don’t know how to do this effectively, but what I do know is to try to avoid my conscious mind to join the messages and strengthen the anxiety cycle.