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The Emergency Department of the Soul

Alarm in your body , Awareness , C-PTSD

The Emergency Department of the Soul

The only reason I "broke" now is because the storm is over, and the stones have been discovered. My nervous system finally realize...

Håvard Frøiland 18 Aug, 2026

Visiting Hours — Surviving the Narrative, Not the Addiction

Alcohol , Ambiguous loss , C-PTSD

Visiting Hours — Surviving the Narrative, Not the Addiction

I was losing myself, and had for a long time, in a slow but unnerving creeping way. Things I tried to hold on to had been falling out betwee...

Håvard Frøiland 15 Aug, 2026

A Bridge That Doesn't Join — Grandparents Running Out of Time

Ambiguous loss , Awareness , C-PTSD

A Bridge That Doesn't Join — Grandparents Running Out of Time

My mum is disappearing slowly, in the particular way dementia disappears a person — not all at once, but in pieces, some days more of her he...

Håvard Frøiland 12 Aug, 2026

My Own Flying Monkey — Understanding C-PTSD and the Inner Critic

ADHD , Alcohol , Ambiguous loss

My Own Flying Monkey — Understanding C-PTSD and the Inner Critic

It has been a wild journey of suffering and confusion. Not knowing how to handle my own life, ending up relying on self-medication with toda...

Håvard Frøiland 6 Aug, 2026

A Pile of Straws, A Search for Light

Awareness , Compassion , Depression

A Pile of Straws, A Search for Light

I have seen the depth, and I have felt its cold, clammy grasp—the pulling force that keeps me down. Words are a straw amongst many, a way to...

Håvard Frøiland 3 Aug, 2026

The Flying Monkeys — Recognizing Them

Ambiguous loss , Awareness , Compassion

The Flying Monkeys — Recognizing Them

See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. I was young, proud, strong and full of life. I was charged with the power of life. I had the world...

Håvard Frøiland 1 Aug, 2026

The War Dollar — Why the Petrodollar System Really Funds Global War

Crypto , Economics , Geopolitics

The War Dollar — Why the Petrodollar System Really Funds Global War

Traditional economics textbooks use the term petrodollar to neutrally describe oil being priced exclusively in US dollars. But the real-wor...

Håvard Frøiland 30 Jul, 2026

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